tempus fugit

Yes, I have one; yes, it's the username you'd expect; yes, I'm still trying to negotiate the access/subscription thing.

I'll be honest: I'm probably not going to be using IJ after this. I'm not terribly keen on the idea of crossposting to three places, and LJ is really where I feel most connected to these days, and I like the system of following people on Dreamwidth better than I like the same system on IJ.

If you have an IJ but not a DW account, you can still comment there with OpenID, and I think you're all familiar with how LJ handles comments.

So yeah. IJ's been an interesting ride, but it looks like I'm moving on now.

Back to Part One

( Something snarls and grabs America's hair and yanks him closer for their lips to crash together, upside-down and violent. )

SO MUCH PORN GUYS. SO MUCH PORN.

EPIC KINKPORN GO.

Also, I find it hilarious that the porn outtakes are longer than the fic itself was.

Title: The International Awesome Pirate Weekend: Director's Cut
Authors: Mithrigil and Puella Nerdii
Fandom: Axis Powers Hetalia
Characters: America, England, Japan. Threesome and then two.
Words: a lot
Rating: Not Safe For Work. Or C-Span.

Summary: Remember The International Awesome Pirate Weekend? Well, this is "how England got Japan's fundoshi" and "what America meant by he fucked me within an inch of my life".


( Ascertain that his wrists are crossed beneath the ropes. )

On to Part Two

so much porn omg

Stolen from Mith, and from various others around the interwebs. Will post actual content soon, really.

Right now I'm just glad it's the weekend, because I've gotten maybe ten hours of sleep total over the past three nights. Possibly less.

NAME A FANDOM (or ficverse) AND I'LL TELL YOU:

01. The first character I fell in love with:
02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
05. The character I would shag anytime:
07. The character I'd slap:
13. Who are my 3 favorite characters:
15. What are my 3 favorite pairings:
16. What are my 3 least favorite pairings:
17. Which character I'm most like:
a. The coolest thing about the canon:
b. The lamest thing about the canon:
c. My guiltiest pleasure in this fandom:
d. What story I wish I could read (or art I wish I could see):
e. What story I wish I had written/still want to write (or art, respectively):

Any fandom, seriously. If it's in my tags or mentioned on my profile, I'll talk about it, though I'll probably have more to say about more recent fandoms. (Heck, even if I haven't mentioned it in either of those places, as long as you know I'm familiar with the source material, I'll go for it.)

Ask away! Opinions, I has them!

My father is getting married next weekend!

Finals are right around the corner, too! And oh boy do I have a lot of final projects and papers to contend with!

And I'm helping my friends out with our newest machinima* project!
Machinima: Think Red vs. Blue. But we're using Fallout 3 because Microsoft dicked us over so badly with our last venture.

I am not going to have a life anymore! Not that I really have one now!

ahahaha. Ahaha. Aha. Ha. ohgodwhyyyy.

(Also, it would be now when I finally feel like writing again. Which makes a certain amount of sense, come to think of it. I find I generally end up writing more, and being more productive, when I'm juggling lots of things at once, because I have to manage my time well.)

Meme, from a_white_rain --
Comment, and I'll:
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, a word etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ. -- only if you want to.

What's this? A ficpost from a Puel? Why yes. Yes it is.

I have missed writing, I really have.

Title: Cannonfire and Half-Mast Flags
Author: puella_nerdii
Fandom: Axis Powers Hetalia
Characters/Pairing: Russia/China, Lithuania
Rating: PG-13, for allusions to sexuality and possibly disturbing imagery
Wordcount: ~4300
Timestamp: March 8-9, 1953
Summary: “There are so many of them.” Russia’s voice swells, shakes. “So many have come to me.” Russia's boss is dead, hundreds are crushed to death at his funeral, and China is tired of being smothered.

( Russia's boss is dead, and Russia's bed is cold. )

Hopefully I will not wait another month to post fic. I don't think I will. Ideas, I has them.

By now, I think everyone's heard of Amazon's rather spectacular fail.

My initial anger has subsided somewhat. Somewhat. I am calm enough to actually make this post instead of sitting in front of my computer sputtering in outrage. Do I think there's a culture of homophobia at Amazon? Not necessarily. Dear Author offers a plausible hypothesis, as does Making Light, though I have a caveat about their post -- they are correct in that Amazon likely did not intend to alienate a significant portion of their customer base with this policy (though they certainly have by now), and that they likely initiated it in an attempt not to offend anyone -- but their definition of offensive ended up reflecting some really ugly truths about the way our culture sees things. Intentional? Maybe not, but they fucked up bigtime, and I want to see big old apology before I'm liable to give them any kind of benefit of the doubt here. (Also, this quote: "“GAY CONTENT IS ADULT??!! RAPE SURVIVOR CONTENT IS ADULT?!!?? HOW DARE YOU AMAZON RARARGH INTERNET RAGE!” responded the masses. " Yeah. Way to portray this as some kind of herdlike mass hysteria. Way to de-legitimize the hurt and anger people are feeling here. Seriously, did Making Light learn nothing from Racefail?)

Do I think this is yet another fucking example of a culture of homophobia at work in the larger sphere, in which I and others who identify as queer constantly find ourselves relegated to the periphery and told that our experiences and voices aren't relevant to the culture as a whole?

Hell fucking yes.

So no, I won't be buying from Amazon for a good long while. As a consumer, I have the right to buy from a company who fucking respects me.

Thus: Amazon Rank. Because making a big fuss about this is how we expose the deep and persistent ugliness at the heart of Amazonfail, something that goes beyond one company's policy.

I was going to tack a meme or something onto the end of this post, but no, I'm letting it stand as it is.

( THE LIST )

I feel like I should slap a Silver Age disclaimer on this story. "NOT an imaginary story! NOT a dream! The characters are NOT robots or clones of themselves from another dimension!"

...the Silver Age was weird, you guys. What can I say. Also there were lots of stories where Lois and Clark got married, except it didn't count because it was a dream/they were robots/they were clones/etc.

But this is not the case here.

To which I say: FUCKING FINALLY.

Title: Self-Evident, part one
Authors: mithrigil and puella_nerdii
Fandom: Axis Powers Hetalia
Characters/Pairing: England/America
Rating: NC-17
Wordcount: ~7300
Timestamp: January 21, 2013
Summary: FUCKING FINALLY.
Alternate Summary: America and England finally resolve some of that epic two-hundred-years-plus-in-the-making UST.

( Hey, England’s not yelling at him to keep his feet on the floor. He guesses that counts as progress, too. )


mithrigil will be posting Part Two either tomorrow or Thursday.

I'm not crossposting this here because I don't want to try to track responses over two journals, but I am taking ficbit requests (le gasp!) at my LJ and I'm trying to not fail at them this time, so if you're interested, feel free to leave a request?

You'd think that now that the show's closed (and it really went well -- I will write about it in more detail later, I'm sure, but I feel like I did good work), I'd have free time again. Time to work on a project I've been dying to finish, even.

You'd think.

Alas, midterms have other plans. *headdesk*

Good things I have received:
* the All He Ever Wanted litho set from the fabulous pinstripesuit and ohmyGOD they are awesome. I need to figure out some way to mount them without destroying them.
* This fanart for The Enemy's Gate is Down, courtesy of kaneha. I am in love with how angry they are, with their body language and the colors and the punching. Yay punching. <3
* another piece of fanart I discovered when googling my username, this time for The Wind, the Sun, and the Eagle, but the site it's on is in Chinese so I'm not sure how to contact the artist and ask her for permission to link to it here. (Might any Chinese-speakers out there be willing to help me with that?)
* Necessary research materials for the Will/Kit/England thing. *grin* I will do my best to keep the fic from becoming a piece of dramatic criticism. But ohgod the intellectual fangasmings I am having over the outline for this.
* Lots of new reading material! My university has a science fiction/fantasy collection, and there's a lot more stuff in there by authors new to me than I initially realized. Right now I'm reading Stars in My Pocket Like Grains of Sand and I kind of want to tl;dr forever about how Samuel Delany constructs gender and language in it. Good thinky stuff.

Hopefully there will be fic up later tonight. *knocks on wood* Only a few more days until spring break, and with spring break comes mithrigil and lindensphinx, and with Mith and Linden comes happiness.

I've done my best to avoid the whole RaceFail debacle so far for a number of reasons, chief among them that while I can point and laugh at wank with the best of them, what I read of RaceFail gave me hives. I had, and have, a lot of respect and admiration for some of the authors featured most prominently in the fracas -- at the very least, I think some of them are capable of producing damned good work. (I still love Elizabeth Bear's Stratford Man duology with all of my Shakespeare-fangirling heart.) And yeah, sometimes -- often, even -- good artists are capable of being great idiots, but it's disappointing and painful to see people whose works you've admired repeatedly Not Getting It.

But, well. They're Not Getting It.

( When we write, we have to be conscious not only of the world we're writing about, but the world we're writing in. )

So I end this post with a clear restatement of a policy I've always tried to implement: if I screw up, tell me. If you're in a position to know, and what I'm saying doesn't match what you know, tell me. We might not agree, but we can try to understand.

And recommendations for good SF/F writers of color -- especially women writers of color -- in the comments wouldn't be amiss. I mean, I've read everything by Octavia Butler and I adore her, but she's just the tip of the iceberg.

So Mith is doing drabble requests now, and it occurs to me that I haven't done them in a long-ass time. Or, well, I've tried, but it hasn't really worked. I come across a request that I can't quite make work and my contrariness kicks in and I refuse to let myself do anything else until I've solved that particular problem and I end up not doing anything.

Really, the smart thing to do would be to only write the prompts I find compelling, but I worry that not selecting someone's prompt will come across as "you're not good enough." Which is stupid, I know, and I am not obligated to write fannish things that don't compel me, and fandom is not my friggin' job, but. I swear, I am too neurotic to live sometimes.

Anyway, all of this is a long lead-in to another meme. Not drabble prompts, yet. In addition to everything mentioned above, I have to remember how to keep things short. And I also should not take drabble prompts during dress rehearsal week, with a huge-ass fic backlog, and a fuckton of reading to do, and midterms a lot closer than I want them to be.

But I will revisit an old favorite of mine, partially because I saw a_white_rain do something similar:

Give me a character I have written, and I will list three facts about them from my personal headcanon.

Again, any character I've written is good, and no fandoms are verboten, though characters I've written recently or written extensively will get better responses than those I haven't. You can ask about as many characters as you'd like, but wait for me to finish your first request before you make a second, just so I can keep a better handle on things.
You can ask for characters I haven't written if they're in fandoms you know I have a lot of headcanon for, but I reserve the right to ask you to pick someone else.

Have at it! This will be a good antidote to long-ass rehearsals.

(Also, I'd like to apologize to everyone reading on IJ for generally being pretty fail at replying to comments lately. Hetalia fandom is pretty much exclusively on LJ, and I've pretty much been in Hetaliamode since the beginning of December, so. I'm going to try to get back to everyone over the next few days.

...it's funny. About eighteen months ago, I was keeping my LJ around as a backup for my IJ. Now it's the opposite.)

Title: This Kind of Knowledge
Authors: mithrigil and puella_nerdii
Fandom: Axis Powers Hetalia
Characters: America and Canada
Rating: PG-13, for -- well, read the summary.
Wordcount: 3750
Summary: Young America and Canada team up to steal a text on Tantric sexual techniques from England's study. Hijinks ensue.

( He's going to cane you. )


No, Mith and I do not have an excuse for this one. *cough*

Stolen from Mith and a host of others:

Apparently in reaction to fandom_secrets and other trivial and incendiary wastes of net-time, TK has started a meme to the effect of "These are some unpopular/controversial opinions that I hold and am unafraid to voice."

As I generally like signing my name to things, here we go.

( unpopular opinion time! )

I am sure I will think of more things to add to this.

Note: If you spoil me for any episodes past Blood on the Scales, I will hurt you. Consider yourself warned.

So I just finished Blood on the Scales.

( Here be SPOILERS )

In short: alishdefliajsdfl/adsf Ron Moore, keep this shit up.

My first Katsu, and I don't think it'll be my last. Photoshoot stuff will come in the days to follow, though there are a few videos under the cut. America and England costumes were a huge hit, the Sei and Sub TB outfits got a good workout, and even the hideous masq costumes led to something pretty spectacular. I can bitch about the clusterfucky organization, and I plan to, but seriously, where else can you be invited up to a stranger's room for cake and geekery?

( COOOOOOOOOON! )

VERDICT: Katsu was awesome, but more in spite of the way the con was organized and conducted than because of it. Still, I mostly go to cons for the people these days, and the people were wonderful. Masquerade was frustrating, but the performers themselves put on a good show. Linden and J were best roommates, and Mith is still best girlfriend.
Hey, we've been dating for nine months now, our relationship's officially gestated...

First of all, new layouts on both the LJ and the IJ. I might fuck around with the IJ layout -- I'd like to get a layout that'll let me put in a header image, but the one I have will do for now, because I don't have time for screwing around in Photoshop today.

Why not? Katsucon. I'm driving down this evening, after rehearsal -- had to do some wrangling to get the time off, but oh is it ever worth it.

Keep an eye out for:
- A Redcoat (Friday, maybe Saturday when not in masq attire, and accompanied by Revolutionary Girl Mithtena Boy America)
- A Subaru in the red outfit from the first volume and first OVA of Tokyo Babylon (Friday night, with Sei stalking tagging along)
- A 1940s England expressing consternation about footwear (Sunday, and I'll have an America then, too)
- the masq costume on Saturday which oh god I can't believe we're doing this
- a Puel accompanied by a Mith, a Linden, and a Jerry

If you see us, please stop by and say hi -- I actually do like being social at cons. Also I am a camerawhore. Goes with the profession.

See you all when the craziness subsides!

You know, maybe I need a break from the fucked-up fic.

*looks at stuff in queue*

...or not. At least this one isn't 4000 words long? Maybe I am kind of learning how to be concise again, sort of?

There is funny lurking around in my head somewhere. I mean it.

Title: Never Enough Blessings
Author: puella_nerdii
Fandom: Axis Powers Hetalia
Characters/Pairing: England/China
Rating: PG-13/R, for horror (and drug use).
Words: ~1200
Timestamp: August 27, 1842 -- the end of the First Opium War.
Summary: Progress, China. It's all a matter of progress.

( It is poison, and I will have nothing to do with it. )

(To everyone who commented and consoled me about Jake: thank you all, so much. *hugs all of you*)

Also, because Mith did it with How I Wonder What You Are (and I think karanguni's been doing something similar, too) and lord knows I like to hear the sound of my own voice:

* Were I to do a DRAMATIC READING of any of my own fics, which ones would you guys want to hear?
* Would you rather hear the whole fic, or just a few of the juicier passages? (If the latter, tell me which ones.)
* What file format works best? I'll probably record these in .mp3 -- no webcam or anything, so you don't get to see the funny faces I make while I read things -- but if there's a friendlier way to distribute all this, I'd love to know.

Suggest away! I'd love an idea of where to start with all of this. I can't guarantee that I'll get to every fic suggested -- it depends on how many ideas you guys throw at me, and for what -- but I might as well put some of my Pretentious Theatre Skills to use.

My god, I'm sleepy. So, um, maybe 21 credits this semester was...a lot. Especially with the show. And have I mentioned that I desperately need a job?

I hope I still have time to write after all this.